I remember sitting in the family car, I was about 18 or so, very strung out, my head was in the very deepest part of the clouds. I had recently discovered that the natural world held all the spiritualism I needed (I was also very naive!). We were driving on the way to a holiday in Cornwall and I was looking out the window at the woods and hills in the rain. I discovered I had a deep need to understand what that landscape meant. What was this elusive place that held so much mystery. I desperately wanted to explore this in my photography.
Skip forward a few decades I decided to explore this idea at my MA (2011-2013). The MA dumped a whole load of information into me and I really wanted to soak it all up, but formulating a cohesive body of work and processing all this information was very difficult for me.
However, my practice led me down the path of creating what I was thinking was an expressive exploration of the figure in the landscape. I didn't really have a notion of the ritual of making these interpretations until long after, at the time I just wanted to pin them to a place, to objectify them (it was only later when I created the Evocation series I think I managed to create the balance between a subjective expressive ritual and objective representation in the books I created, in many ways Evocation is the conclusion to what was started here).
With hindsight, these images represent an addiction, a passionate and brutal attempt to draw out and visualise a sublime of what I was seeing around me at the time (this is also true of the Evocation series). This isn't to say it was a good or enlightening sublime, a lot of it was dark and certainly was linked to my attitude towards inner City living. The title 'Seeing the wild' was my need to link City life to the natural world, because wilderness it is, I was trying to work out what I was as an artist. I think I can admit now that I was and still am of the nobel line of the photographic flâneur. I wish I knew that when I was 18 (I guess that's life!).
Perhaps the obsessional photographic flâneur is a good starting point for research, it sounds like something already done. I'll have a look and report back (probably in the blog section).
Just a note on the images, this is how I would like to have displayed them online, full size. Landscape images are extremely multi faceted and if they were to be printed, they would be very large, so its important that are seen full screen.